but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31
The panic came today, making all kinds of demands. Her shouts of fear tempt me to tune my ear to her lies, while trying to lasso my heart with fear. Thoughts that harm is lurking around the corner or is concealed in the closet wage war inside of me. Again. So many days in a row that I lived without it and today. TODAY. Today panic attacked my peace and threatened to steal my joy.
Maybe I wasn’t ready for my first writing conference. Maybe I wasn’t ready to tell my story. Or maybe I was ready and the panic is just my heart remembering when I couldn’t speak truth, when I had to remain silent. After being prayed for and over, being anointed, I continued with the conference. The panic had triggered the deep need inside of me for substances, refusing to be silent.
These are the moments that I am so aware of my desperate need for the good news of the gospel. I need Jesus to reach into the darkest recesses of my heart and win the battle that I am too weak to win. He is able. I know that He is. And so, I cry out to the God who hears and ask Him to intervene, to pour out His grace and love, to give me His strength in place of my own weakness. So, I turn to His holy and perfect living Word.
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8 (NIV)
And there he is. My Savior shows up to remind me that He is with me, that even as the heart races, the accusations run over my mind, the fight or flight mode leaves me shaking and quaking, I do not have to be afraid. Even in the midst of it all, he is present. His promise is that He will never leave me. I am too weak, but He is my present and real help. He is my peace.
And for you today, the truth is the same: The Lord is with you. He will not leave you in the midst of panic or overwhelming fears. The promise of his unfailing presence is the same. He will not give up on you, leave you, runaway from you. Wherever you are this morning, the Lord is with you. If you are struggling with sin, call out to the Lord who loves you. If panic is pounding in your chest, seek his face. The Lord Himself is your help and your strength. Let his words silence the fear.